First, I broke astrology. I wanted to find the “real” astrology, so I studied everything: Hellenistic, Renaissance, Modern, Western Sidereal, Cosmobiology and even Uranian astrology. But instead of becoming an expert, I just got tired. I was constantly comparing different systems, and in the end, I quit it all.
And now, I’m doing the same to Tarot.
I’m “breaking” Tarot for myself. My favorite deck is the colorful Tarot de Marseille by Fournier. I use it for a spread, but then… I start checking how the same cards look in other decks, instead interpret what I have on a table.
I realized I have Tarot FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out). I am looking for the “true” deck because I’m afraid I will miss an important detail. Because of this, interpreting the cards has become very difficult for me.
It wasn’t always like this. When I started yeeeeeears ago (in 2008!) with the Initiatory Tarot of the Golden Dawn, I didn’t know anything about other traditions. Ironically, my readings were much better then! I trusted the images and focused only on that one deck.
I forgot that Tarot de Marseille is a whole tradition, not just one specific deck.
I want to enjoy Tarot again. So, I made a decision: for some time, I will use only my Fournier deck (and, maybe compare it with Grimaud only, as it is based directly on Grimaud). I want to learn its “language” and all its little details. I will stop comparing it to Conver, Noblet, Jean-Pierre Laurent or anything else.
Sometimes, to see clearly, you need to look at only one thing at a time, right?
Because of this, I started to make my own card meanings, based only on Fournier and Grimaud. You can find them on this website: Swords meanings.